JASSSSMINTAY

song : next to you - Jordin Sparks
mood : HOI , CONFUSING , TIRING , ARGHHH !

its been 15 days .
i miss you , do you?
gosh ! dont wish to know.

maybe we are friends
maybe we are more
maybe its just my imagination
but i see you stare just a little too long
and it makes me start to wonder.

just like today , you smiled why?
i always lik you to look at me .
always , i'll always always smile/laugh to myself after tht.
they call me crazy but somehow i cant help it , hehs !

sometime you will just stare at me w/o any expression.
you look scary ,
i ask myself many questions.
are u mad? whads wrong? why are you like tht? i'm sorry
it hurts so badly.

i tried not looking at you.
but i cant , no matter which corner u will be hiding.
i will just be looking at tht direction.
it may be your back view , side view watever .
i'm not a pervert but somehow idk why.
HAHA , you can call yourself attractive after this.

heehees ,
i miss you so much ,

'i keep telling myself i'll get over this.
wth , i dun need you.
i have mine life , you have yours too .
no big deal .'

you tell me , who am i suppose to be kidding ?
thts crap , CRAP .
i need you badly.
i miss you i want u back .
i cant get get over you , you're already part of me.
and i thought we share the same life.
oh whatever.

theres nothing much i can do about it ,
guess whad i still shed some tears when i tink of you.
i'm so silly so dumb ,
why why why ?!
i cant cheer up , i want you .
i got no one to turn to .
yes we chat every single day .
you seem to love your life now,
i dont know how HOW!?

i told them to cheer up.
yet ME myself?
WHY WHY ?!
everything reminds me of you.
EVERYTHING.

even the silliest thing you do make me smile.
how i wish things were still the same.
dont you rmb how sweet was it before it changed drastically?
i did not even have the chance to pass you the cookies i baked for you.

end of year starting tomorrow :D
remember mid year , how we study tgt everynight ?
you dont do studying.
but you accompanied me.
how sweet :D

remember the little little note you pass it to me before i went for my OBS?
i still have it , sheding tears each time i look at it :D
the 5days at OBS was horrible i miss you so badly.
but on the 5th day you skipped school just for me
cause u were afraid you couldnt sign out
and you were there waiting for me, sending me home and taking a walk tgt
holding me close to you , hugging me tight.
giving me the kiss of my life :D
you are the sweetest.

but this time is worst then the 5days.
i dont even know when is the end to this,
will you still be there after this?
i cant go on .
i miss you so badly.

ps. i love you. so so much .
xoxo ,
JASMINTAY .

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