JASSSSMINTAY

I.JUST.GOTTA.LET.YOU.KNOW
i know what i did wasnt clever.

when the roof cave in and the truth came out ; i just dint know what to do. && after another big round, its back and square.❤ I MISS WILFREDTAN
hello sunshines, memories are flashing back to me once again thanks to everyone who spoke to me about the past. ]': its beautiful, weird i still feel the smile across my face when i thought of the stuff we did together; the silly silly look you always have on your face just to make me smile; when used to lie on my lap and i start playing with your hair. and tears start to form when i thought about how your lips brushed against mine; the way our eyes locked; the way you hold me just ever so tight. && i'm starting to miss the past when you used to put me above everyone; the way you would squeeze my cheeks. i'm starting to hate myself and got afraid when i things turn out the wrong way; it cuts me like a knife when you walk out of my life; tht day you told me you hated me. i'm starting to miss you once again. but i just dont understand this break up && neither do i understand why do i feel this way, because i'm just not tht type of girl to get my heart broken, who gets upset and cry, and it never hurts to say goodbye but things are different with him. i hope everyone would just stop talking to me about the past for quite sometime please i want to get everything out once again, cause its just going nowhere.

i got to admit, i still steal glance at you in school; smiling to myself with every action of yours HAH; and got tht weird feelings when you get attention from other girls && i just hate it alrights and i would just do some other things hoping to get the attentions from you. i din realised i was doing all tht until my friend told me. what a bitch. && i felt great when our eyes locked to each other again for almost 4 seconds and ending it with an awkward smile tht very day. and now i realised i'm still not over you.

was supposed to do a proper blog update but somehow; idk why i did this instead. i'm really tired of everything now, when will this ends?

E D I T E D
marina barrage 200210 (L)

i'm feeling so much more stable right now; heehee and i decide to do a proper/short update before i'm off to complete all my homeworks. heehee homeworks drives me crazy ! hehee.

WILFRED'S HOUSE
19feb2010 - went to wilfred's house after school to bainian. heehee memories came back. whatever haha, had an audition match with pikiam and bird. obviously i lost HAH ! but its still fun. and after tht mandy; anders and I had a family talk. LOL cause anders was my twin and mandy is his girlfriend ? LOL okays weird. heehees, anders showed me the neoprints of mandy and its so funny dont look like her and she is really good at losing weight ! :D and the family talk so funny. i got to hear what i really like to hear after so long but i shld think so much because its just going no where HAH! after tht blahs ~ and daddy drove me home.

MARINA BARRAGE WITH SCH MATES
20feb2010 - marina barrage outing with small; weilynn; peiying; sandra(?); teresa; lifa; matthias; joshua; jiahui; and small's father(?) dunno his name LOL! its FUN alrights :D heehee, before tht i had 2hours of tuition and i was falling asleep in tuition class and its like one on one tuition HAH ! after tht i took the train and met the rest at adm. heehee bought our stuffs and train-ed to our destination.

heehee when we reached. they started flying the kite and we sat there playing blackjack. in beginning i won back what i've lost and its like alot alrights. and i got greedy and at the end of the day i've lost everything HAH! and the kite was flown away LOL cause they let go. HEEHEE so funny. went marina to have our dinner and peiying bought her shoes. heehee, and lifa's leg was bleeding for no reason. helped him with the plaster and walked around marina square :D heehee and all of them are from my school alrights and we spend the whole day tgt but it was quite disappointing when they ask me which sch am i from. obviously they dunno who am i? they thought i was xiaoqian's cousin or something LOL . until xiaoqian showed them my sch picture and they were like OOOHH ! tht JASMIN ._. LOL, so different. only xiaoqian; peiying; teresa; sandra and matthias recognised me ._. wth rights.

after tht, went to sandra's house and it was BEAUTIFUL ! i swear. :D had ghost stories told. matthias told me a ghost story tht everyone heard before it almost like yihui's one when suddenly shout at the back. but in the middle of the story xiaoqian screamed and i jump up. LOL so i was scared twice in tht stupid story ._. scarely cat . after tht went home and theres like no transport back anymore. so i took the cab . awww my money ]: HAHA !

xoxo,
JASMINTAY

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